Months back, something happened that rocked my world. I was
hurt, angry and actually shocked by the events. I took it all inside and
thought I was no good. Then I thought, I was so angry, I could never focus on
life the correct way again. Then something happened, just a little something and
a life change happened with it. Suddenly my anger turned to peace, and love and
light, and mainly into kindness. My heart grew so big, I thought my chest would
burst out.
I remember when Gabby
Giffords was shot and I could not deal with the grief and the pain of what
happened. I told myself the only way through was to do a good deed every day
until the one year anniversary came up. When the one year anniversary came up,
I realized kindness cures so much and so I kept doing a kind acts.
Sometimes, I would want to use kindness sarcastically, I discovered
when I did that, it ended up with sarcasm turning into sincerity. I believed it
enough to make it so. Sometimes, when people are mean, I say kind things to
them. Sometimes when people are really mean I try to do kind things for them.
I realize sitting here today writing, some people do not
want your kindness. Sometimes, I have learned, there are people, where kindness
does not beget kindness and the kindest thing we can do, is not be kind to
them. This is not to say be mean, this is just to say, let them be, and when
they are ready to accept kindness they will take it.
Why are people afraid of kindness and why would they rather
push you away than take kindness? Many reasons really. Sometimes, they do not
feel it is sincere, most of the time, they just cannot look at it because many
fear kindness has a catch. Sometimes people cannot embrace your kindness
because it aroused sadness, pain, anxiety. Mainly I think people take issue
with kindness because we live in a society that does not trust.
I think we should practice random acts of kindness, but more
important, we must wise to know that some people would rather citizen and
attack you. Don’t take it personal. Surround them with love, light and kindness
in your heart and in your mind and just move forward. Let’s face it, being a kind person is about
you and you can only hope others would want it. So pass kindness on, and don’t
take it personal.
